i say hello to my haters.

Okay look I’m honest, girl I can’t lie I miss you, you and the music were the only things that I commit to. I never cheated for the record back when I was with you, but you believe in everything but me girl, I don’t get you.

When a good thing goes bad its not the end of the world its just the end of a world, that you had with one girl and she’s the reason it happened, but she’s over reacting and its all because she don’t want things to change. So cry if you need to but I can’t stay to watch you that’s the wrong thing to do, touch if you need to but I can’t stay to hold you that’s the wrong thing to do, talk if you need to but I can’t stay to hear you that’s the wrong thing to do..

I’ve got your picture in my wallet and your phone number to call it, and I miss you more whenever I think about you.

What is love?

For me, love is that deep connection you feel when you look into each other’s eyes. It’s when you miss the small things, like the way she says your name, the way she cooks your food, the way she plays with your hair, and so on. It’s when even after a big fight and having not spoken, you can turn to her and see the love in her eyes as she moves in to kiss you and apologize. It’s when you feel accepted by one another and no one else’s opinion matters. It’s when you fight over stupid things, like what makes the sky blue or whose turn it is to cook dinner or what time the movie is. It’s when you can cry to her about anything and she just wipes away the tears and puts a smile on your face. It’s when you can fully, 110% trust her with your secrets and believe the things she says to you. It’s when your heart skips beats the moment you lay eyes on her. It’s when the first thing you notice isn’t how attractive she is physically; it’s when you find her personality attractive. It’s when you’re apart from each other and you feel like something major is missing from you. Love is when, deep down, you know this girl, is the one you want to spend your time with, because it isn’t a waste, because she treats you the way you deserve to be treated, she treats you better than anyone ever has, and you know she loves you just as much, if not more, than you love her. Love is happiness. Love is sadness. Love is togetherness. Love is the best feeling in the world. Love is something everyone should give and receive unconditionally. Love is what I am blessed to have from my girlfriend, and will continue to have until she can’t stand me anymore, which I hope doesn’t happen.

Love is a crazy feeling and everyone wants to believe that it isn’t hard and that everything is happy and sunny. Love isn’t that at all. It’s supposed to be hard and hurt at times. It’s not supposed to be good or go the way we want all the time. Loving someone is loving them for their flaws to a certain extent and understanding that everyone has their days. When you love someone you learn that you can’t just give up easy just because it’s what people tell you to do. I am not saying that girls or guys for that matter should accept being beat or emotionally abused. I just know that sometimes people give up too easily on love when that is not what should happen. Love is a beautiful thing and even though there are days that I just feel like I should give up, I remember that love is what makes life go around. Not just the love for someone who you want to be with forever but love with family and friends.

I believe young love is the best kind of love there is. You start off at a young age and you are able to learn about yourself throughout the process, but the best part is you have that one special person by your side experiencing the same thing. You experience new things with each other, you end up forming your relationship, and better yet you start to create a life together knowing that you’re in it for the long run. Love is a million things, big and small. It doesn’t have one definition; it’s whatever you make it out to be.

There are millions of ways to describe a person, both positive and negative but I can only use 50% of them to describe her. This still means there are millions of ways to tell you how much she means to me. She has been all mine for almost 7 months. I have been seeing her for up to 10 months. And I would not change a second of it. She knows full well some of the things I have been through and how hard I have found some aspects of life, yet I would go through them again and again if it meant I could spend one more day with her. She’s kind, funny, smart, talented, beautiful, and incredible and she is almost always happy. She makes people around her happy, she’s unique and herself no matter what anyone says for that I love her. I am boring, annoying and just average nothing great at all, and I have a huge issue with that, how it gets me down that everyone around seems to want to take all the good things away from me or ruin things for me. Yet when I’m with her I trust that the one good thing, the one thing I never want to lose won’t go. This is because she tells me she will never leave me, and for once I can feel good about myself which I have never done before.

I’m starting to realize that my love for her is a bunch of cliches strung together like a perfect story with a perfect ending. In reality, what we have is far from perfect, but maybe that makes sense. Maybe it makes sense that I’ve never felt this way about anyone before and when I am with her, my heart beats faster and slower at the same time. Sure, it wasn’t love at first sight, but we were put together because we were supposed to be. And now I can’t let her go even if I wanted to. I get tired of people telling me I don’t know what love is or that I can’t be in love. I have fallen absolutely in love with my girlfriend in a short period of time, but I know I love her. It’s not just a thought that runs through my head every day, asking myself if I really do over and over. I know it, when I look her in the eyes I feel safe, warm, and happy. I care about her more than myself and I would do anything to make her happy even if it means making sacrifices. I hold on even when things look like they will never get better. I love all the small things about her to, from the sparkle in her eye to her laugh. I notice things about her that no one else would ever pay attention to.

In the world that we live now many people use the term “forever alone” too often and others just forget that love exists everywhere, even if it’s for your boyfriend or girlfriend, mother, father, siblings or best friends. What really counts is that no one is alone, well at least not forever and I’m here to show you how precious that feeling is, even if at some of the moments it gives you a hard time. I know for me I found the one person that makes me happy. Yes, we have our ups and downs and all around like any relationship, but it’s been almost 7 months. We have spent so much time with each other even though it doesn’t seem like it, but as much time as we can. Some people told me it’s too much. That we will get tired of each other or bored of each other to easily. But yet I still get excited the same way I have always when I thought about seeing her. It’s been this long and there has been no question in my mind that I would love to spend the rest of my life with her. I know for me, I’ve never felt this way for anyone. I could never make a commitment with someone, knowing I am not able to live by that commitment or event want to. In this situation I know I do. This girl is amazing. She lifts up my day. Jump starts my heart. Makes me smile. Causes me to sing songs. Dance around like there isn’t a care in the world. I’ve never truly had a dream or been able to imagine my life with a person for the rest of my life. Never really found the one that I wanted to do that with. I have had girlfriends that I have been serious with, but I couldn’t imagine being with them for the rest of their life or mine. I could not imagine spending everyday with them. I thought about it but I could never really imagine it. Now I have found someone that I can. Someone that I love more than anything I ever had and will never abandon or sabotage.

I have the best girlfriend ever. She was the only person I had to talk to. My best friend. When we met, I had lost a friend, I was going through the pain of someone hurting me, and I was going through the constant pain I deal with due to judgments and my family. She was the one that had open ears about anything I had to say. As best friends, I listened to her problems, I tried to help as much as I could. I really never expected it to turn into more than that, but I’m prepared. I’m prepared for a million questions. I’m prepared for uncontrollable laughter, for her family, her friends, her sad/happy tears. I’m prepared to fight for her and to love her for the rest of my life. She’s truly amazing, and she surprises me every day with everything she does. She’s my pride and joy. I couldn’t have asked for a better best friend, a better girlfriend, or a better soul mate.

I don’t expect her to be perfect. You can’t judge someone from the outside. Their insides matter the most, and their physical appearance is just a bonus feature. Her flaws, creates her perfection. I like her looks, but I love her heart. When I’m with her, it’s the greatest feeling in the world, nothing compares to the heart-warming touch I get. The beating of her heart is the melody to my song. Her voice has become the music to my ears. No, I don’t expect us to go through a perfect relationship, but I don’t expect a crappy one either. I know things won’t always be perfect; we have to go through obstacles and disagreements to get it to where it is. We won’t always agree on the same things, we’ll have pointless arguments in the future, but as long as we both put effort into this relationship we’ll both pull through together hand in hand. Wherever life takes us, I’ll stand next to her and hold her hand to help her get through it. I won’t let her go through anything alone. When she needs someone, I’ll be there to comfort her. I’ll do everything I possibly can to make her happy. She deserves to live a life filled with happiness.

When you decide to spend your life with someone, that doesn’t say, “I can’t live without you and you’re my life”, or that you’ll give her flowers every single day, but what it does say is, you’re a part of my life that I want to keep. You’re somebody I want to argue over bills with and every now and then avoid talking for a few days. It also means they’re the person you want to wake up next to every day, and it also means that there’s no one else on the planet that you think you could make a life with better, and that you’re content with loving no one else like you do. What real love is is more beautiful than those heart-pounding things you see in movies or dream of. It’s more magical to share every day that you breathe with another person, than it is to have a fairytale.  I honestly think that if you want a life with someone and if they feel the same and don’t change your minds, it’s not hard to achieve. I might be naïve for that, but I honestly think that if you want someone as your partner, and if they want you, then there’s nothing that should stop you two unless it doesn’t feel right anymore. So look at love in a clearer light and know that if you want it, put your all and it should be alright, and stay calm for all those minutes that you feel insecure or worried because the feelings strengthen and lessen constantly, but there’s going to be that undercurrent telling you to hold on once you find that person.

I’ve never truly loved anyone, until her. And you know that’s really the way it goes. Isn’t it? You think you love someone, sometimes many someone’s. But really, you never truly love until you find that perfect match. You know you have found that match, when you stop caring about your own personal happiness coming first, because you simply want them to be happy. When they’re happy everything feels right, and you’ll know they are happy because that’s when you’ll be happiest too. You stop caring about what anyone else thinks, and you stop trying to impress people because you know the only ones opinion that matters is the one coming from her. You will never forget her just-woke-up hair. Her smile is always right there in your mind. Those every little details about her will be deep down in that special place in your heart. You would never worry about how silly she is, how she sometimes embarrasses you, makes you angry or sad. You will just want to see her, hug her and hug her tight as long as you can. She sits next to you and nothing else matter. That feeling of warmth and tenderness fills up your soul. Really, all you want to do is hug her and kiss her and show her that you are hers. Those wonderful moments make you realize how you love her truly.

There is no real definition. Everyone has their own perspective on love. This is how my girlfriend makes me feel, this is how we love each other. All the things above are how we know we are made for each other. It’s how we know were madly in love and that it’s real. She’s really my other half, my best friend, but most importantly my soul mate. She knows me better than anyone else, and she definitely shows it. She can tell what I’m going to say when I say it, or what I’m thinking, or what I’m about to do.

If you want to build a life with someone, and if they feel the same, go for it. Don’t throw it away if you could see it with them/if you want it. It might not be beautiful all the time but it’s worth it. I would never want to change anything about her. I love her, for who she is. She’s more than worth it. I hope she never thinks differently.

And it’s like I can’t feel a thing without you around
And don’t mind me if I get weak in the knees
‘cause you have that effect on me, you do

Everything you say
Every time we kiss, I can’t think straight
But I’m okay
And I can’t think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you